It's a wrap
Wednesday
The update Countdown
Hi Thomas Colvin I can't beleive I finally found you. OMG how long has it been since we last saw each other? Halloween 1966 the day you were born. Who would of thought our lives would have turned out this way. I always knew you had it in you, so sorry it was tough getting "OUT" and about but who wants to beat that dead horse again, not I. So GLAD we found each other do keep in touch. Love your Alter Ego Thom Collins
summer 2009
Who ME?
Friday
Saturday
1,000,000 GAYS & LESBIANS ON FACEBOOK! Global
Thom Collins- represent O.K.L.A.H.O.M.O Sexual, tis me! Were doing fine OKLAHOMa city Okay. I see my Sister Tulsa in da house and love this experiment. Just in case I pull a Kate Winslet I wrote a little something if honored with such a noble duty to represent my Twisted Sisters here on the belt buckle of the bible belt. If not it was just an honor to try and make sense of this observation as to stay on point and not go all Wild Tangent up in here. This is how I see it and I have seen allot.
Picture it Midwest Oklahoma City 1995 just opening a non for profit HIV/AIDS foundation Open Your Heart org. Always one to be a step ahead understanding the power of publicity a close girlfriend signed me up to a then Large but still communal AOL 1.5 giving me the Handle name ThomPoz. Remember the famous "Inter webs" didn't go mainstream until 1998. This is my point and how it all relates to this project on Facebook. If NOT for the GLBT community keeping those memberships/cash flow to AOL servers always UP for a good time at all hours of the day getting served a daily dose of just how friendly the GAYS who by no fault of our own are 1st in line to be condemned/hated on, or beaten but at the same time this then uncharted Internet and Cyberspace began to introduce Netscape or a new app called a search engine like Yahoo all would profit through growth and expansion as to one day be able to chat around the world but someone (Al Gore?) or something had to host it.
So 1995 prior and after AOL kept many a members happy with the somewhat original dose of a very BUSY GLBT Communal Networking of it's time knocking the 976 party lines off their throne before they realized the now Infamous M4M "CHAT ROOMS" were fresh,overloaded, exciting, and new. Just those three years alone AOL saw a spike in memberships and they were not from housewives for scrap booking ideas. Plus it was FREE! Honey we were at the party and as a Veteran of AOL I still have my chats/hosted HIV/AIDS private hosted monthly chat printed on dot.matrix printer. Knowing it impossible to try and compete with the ever changing M4M basic inquiry to years later so very creative M4BiM/Tran under 30 Chat rooms.Turned on and over by the time mainstream America could say Who Where What or -www..dotcoms were just learning the difference between the animal Mouse and the computer mouse and the idea of the Personal computer/Media/Video/Music/Entertainment basically as we now know and love didn't get off so to speak with such excitement invested money into the future of the World Wide Web and Silicon valley .dot Busted. My friends still built my website in 1998 sadly she is still up and gets email to date but archaic html gives a glimpse or a snapshot if you will of what the net was like 10 plus years ago.
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Sunday
Just When You Think The Pain is Going Away….
December 28Th will go down as the worst day of my life, far worse than testing HIV positive, far more painful than being picked on, kicked out of my home, and ostracized by my church for my so called "choice" to be gay. Crying sneaks up on you and when you realize all the love,attention, friendship, support, and all that is unconditional this beautiful 2 week old black capped Capuchin we named Rolex was a custodial blessing from my beloved Jesus himself. Just a half year shy of his 13 birthday God called him home and my faith is the ONLY thing which gets me thru this. I can only compare this pain to the loss of your mate or child. If you find my grief misplaced and refer to Rolex as a "PET" I would have to break my Christian tradition and choose NOT to ever correspond with you ever again. Debating Gays going to hell is fun for me but this monkey after all is 98 percent closest DNA/Genes as us humans. He was there just like E.T. was there for Elliot and vice versa. Rolex fought the last two years with an auto immune disease not really verified but similar to Lupus. Then he had allergic reaction 4 years ago to the damn rabies shot they don't need but only if it just about kills them first. His left leg was never the same. Type two diabetes since a baby I could go on but like myself living with AIDS he took care of David and I as we did him and our home is an empty shell, a silent quiet, a realization one will have to eventually face and after this dreadful first two weeks since he passed in my mates arms around this time two weeks ago he was at home and knew he was surrounded with love. I said my goodbyes two weeks ago for I raised him and I knew Rolex was tired and in some ways held on for us and never once would I keep him alive for selfish reasons but 4 days prior he and I in the moonlight coming thru our bedroom laying and looking outside into the dark night was our night. I admit I tend to go the high dramatic route but with tears running down my face looked him in the eyes and like we have seen in movies told him if you need to go, I understand and I will be okay, but if you want to fight I will fight with you. He cooed and like any other time licked my salty tears but once again life imitating art in this case my favorite movie E.T. was he speaking to me through his powerful eyes always in deep thought could hear in my head "COME" and me to him without speaking "Stay" and then kissed his now scabby red and swollen toes trying now not to loose it completely whimpered "OUCH". It was my moment so precious loving, sad, dramatic, knowing it was a matter of time, who knew just 3 days later. He is still in our room since cremated unable to even look at his ashes for we are having a beautiful Glass Globe made by Pet Memories where they use some of his ash, mixed with two colors lit with halogen light from below looking so ethereal. So I along with my partner David try to stay busy and have to watch our health too now. I will end with we love all of our family be it mothers, fathers, grandparents, siblings, and friends. My family all lives out of state and Rolex was like my partner a DAILY part of my EVERYDAY routine. My beloved Nanny died earlier this last year also and since there are no monkey sitters I have never been able to travel or been out of the state since Rolex got to around 3 but 1999 was the day my life stood still. I can't sleep in our bed, cut an apple, shower in my shower, and my partner God bless him use to moan about the mess Rolex could unleash upon this house since he WAS NOT CAGED Raised leaving peanut shells all over, and around New Years Eve we couldn't look at each other for fear of whaling and weeping but with tears coming down David's face he said to me "Dammit I would kill for just one peanut shell to pick up" we cried again hugged and take each day one day at a time. Thank you for supporting and allowing me a chance to share this personal part of my heart with you.
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